Why Am I Sad After I Broke Up With My Ex Boyfriend

192 thoughts on “I Broke It Off With Him Now I Miss Him”

Hannah

November 29, 2020 at 2:04 pm

Me and my boyfriend were together for 19 months… we were friends first, he fell for me first but I just wanted to be friend. His character is that he had a rough childhood, in debt, no hugh jackman, but he had a heart of gold (at times). I grew up with a good family and I’d say I was kind and giving, at least I try to be. We went to teach English together in China and that’s where I fell for him, and I fell ill so we came home to england, it was hard at first, going from living together and being together to moving into our parents house again and being separate… I’ve the first year he became more depressed, trying to do a degree and failing to get a job while I got a job in education and started a diploma straight away, I was luckier.. but I still supported him… I noticed a month or two before our first year anniversary that we’d fought a lot over little things, and as I could drive and he couldn’t I felt that he was taking lifts for granted and me as well… so we had a big talk and broke it off before our one year, we were both distraught … but somehow we chose to meet up and really open up about what was wrong, we were on different paths and distant but we still loved and cared for each other so we tried again and started from scratch. And it was working, I was asked on a date and the spark returned, we had a really good summer, minimal arguments… but again… over the past few months he began to crush my happiness every time a special occasion was coming or I was happy about something… I don’t even think he realised what he was doing, I know his life isn’t the best… but that was no way to treat me after I’ve done everything in my power mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially to help him out and make him the better man I’ve seen a few times… but it was getting worse… his birthday is next week… I had plans for it, already bought gifts for him for bday and Xmas… but last week.. again… he crushed my excitement and I told him it hurt and I told him that I wasn’t gunna drive to him to sort out the fights any more (as I always drove to him to sort them out, I’m the fixer, he prefers to hide away), anyway… I waited a week in hopes he’d come to my house and apologise, I even told him what the basics are for an apology and the longer is left the worse it’s getting.. skip 6 days later and still nothing but ‘I’m exhausted’ after he’d been at work and I’m still sat waiting in hope that he’d fight for me and our relationship and offer what I deserve… it didn’t happen… me and my family were let down by him… so I drove to him and did what I had to do… he didn’t even fight it… he just accepted it and said he didn’t blame me and that I deserve better and later messaged me saying he’s hurt… his words have always been contradicting … there were really good times with him… I miss him… but I know that’s part of the big three you mentioned… I know I deserve someone who will recognise when they’ve hurt me and apologise face to face, but this was my first love and my second heart break… I just hope I’ll feel better by Christmas as I don’t want this to ruin it… I think we could be friends after we’ve had time to heal but no more… I know what I did was right… it was Constant emotional abuse.. my family had told me many times.. I should have listened earlier… so yeah… this is my story… I just want to pain to go away… I still care for him and hope he can better himself… but I’ve realised it’s not my responsibility to mother him… to use my energy and life to help him before myself… I need to do some self improvement myself and really accept my worth and hopefully one day find someone who respects my worth as an adventurous, kind, giving, and happy woman.
Lia

November 20, 2020 at 1:40 am

In the course of one week, he became sooo busy he couldn’t find time for a five minute phone call. I held my fears in check until the weekend when his friends spontaneously came into town, and I wasn’t invited.

I actually calmed down during the evening, but I wanted to talk to him and express my need for some phone contact during the week. Not a lot, just some. That is when he came heavy with the I’m busy. I’m so busy I can’t breathe. I’ll be this busy for a while. No a five minute phone call isn’t out of the question…but he never said it’s something he would do. He may have said he would try.

So I got all fearful that I would just turn into a weekend booty-call that I suggested I go get my stuff from his house that weekend. No he said, I’ll bring it. And that fucker did the next day. Drove an hour within his “busy” schedule but could not have possibly found time for a phone call.

I do realize that I didn’t honor his need for space. He did that for me when I needed it. But I also reassured him that I just needed some time to recharge. I sent him flowers w an apology note two days later.

I’m now on day four. No response. I’m not freaking out and can see myself waiting until after the holidays to reach out if I still feel this way about him. Who knows, he might wish me a happy birthday next month ‍♀️
Maya Jones

November 11, 2020 at 12:53 pm

Me and my Ex were together For a year and 2 months. I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend because I didn’t trust him. I felt like I had to protect my feelings at all times. he didn’t understand well. All my life people have been leaving me life Left and right and he didn’t understand that all I wanted was for him to be there and not leave. We’ve broken up and gotten back together multiple times. Which is bad I know but whenever I felt him ready to break up with me, I rushed and I did it before him. We a go through this whole roller coaster and then get back together just to break up again. And then we came to the conclusion that maybe we weren’t meant to be together. Maybe we were meant to be friends and so we did we tried to be just friends and I ended up breaking it off because I couldn’t handle us just being friends. So I said we should stopped talking completely. But he would call me almost every week. Just to ask if I was okay or to just check on me. But I was so mean to him I would tell him to stop calling me or texting me or that I didn’t care about what we had. But really I did. I just didn’t want him to think I was missing him, I would stay up late I couldn’t sleep, I wasn’t eating like I used to. I wasn’t as happy. I isolated myself from every one. But one day he called me and I told him how I felt and we got back together and we were together for about 3 weeks and then I broke it off again only because I didn’t feel like he cared. He didn’t show me any time of emotions. He told me he was scared because he didn’t know if I would break up again or hurt his feelings. I never intended on hurting his feelings I just didn’t want him to know how I felt or that I cared. So now we’re broken up and I don’t know if he wants to get back with me. I love this man. But I don’t know if love is enough anymore.
Jennifer

November 4, 2020 at 2:49 pm

I broke up with my boyfriend of 8 1/2 years in Feb. It was a long time coming. We used to live together for years at my apartment (he’s 53 I’m 50 now) It was so great at the beginning all the good things about a relationship. He didn’t drink, I did but not like I ended up doing. He held the door we had holidays with family. He became family. I loved him, still do. Over time he started drinking (not heavy) just he stopped drinking years before that and then started again. That was the beginning of no fun. We broke up for a short time early on because of arguing and booze and all that. We got back together and it was great for awhile he didn’t live with me anymore, he’d stay one day during the week and the weekends. Then it got worse and he’d stay only on Saturday nights. It was ridiculous. As I write this I’m like oh my God why am I upset. I finally after months said that’s it no more, let’s be friends we’re both miserable. We never lost touch via texts and calls every now and then. This past summer I invited him over for a cookout and then he came another time to clean our fishtank (I can’t do it) Again we never lost touch I mean we’d go a week or two then get a text or send one. How are you? Have a good day. We both still care and love each other. I found out this past Saturday I has asked him over for dinner and to help me with a few things (fish tank) that he’s been seeing some girl he’s known forever (which by the way I’d never heard of in the 9 years we were together??) He likes her and has been friends w/her for years.He said it’s been a month and they went out a handful of times, but I think it’s more than that. He told me he loved me still but I screwed him over. He’s angry and keeps bringing up how I kicked him to the curb, how I dumped him and now I’m sad because he’s with someone. I played the cry baby girl, still feeling like that today. He’s saying he cares for this girl and doesn’t want to hurt her and it’s my doing to begin with. It’s been 6 months since we’ve been together, partially because of Covid (he lives with his dad who’s sick and older). I am a mess just knowing he’s with someone else and I’m mad at myself because I know in my heart we shouldn’t be together unless there was a 180 turn around and he is who he is. He’s a simpleton, he’s kind of an old man where he just wants to work, come home and chill and not be alone. He said to me I don’t want to be alone, what am I supposed to do Jen? Sit home all my life. Anyway I am hurt and I want it to go away. I can’t stop thinking about it and I can’t stop texting and I know he still loves me he’s said it. Still has my pictures up as I do as well. I don’t know what to do. I know I should leave him be and just know it’s not meant to be but I can’t because I still care and we are family. I’m close with his dad and that’s another part of it. I want it to all go away!!!!
Jennifer
Destiny Xiao

October 23, 2020 at 12:05 pm

Hi!
So me and my boyfriend met in college and have been dating for two years. However, we started doing long distance after coronavirus happened and we both went back home. For about 6 months we have been doing long distance and it was still going. However during this process i cheated on him with two guys. And we had a lot of differences come up during our Facetime dating period. For instance I am a really big feminist and he would always bring up sexist stuff or send sexist stuff to me from Instagram. We would always fight about these issues over Facetime, and more fights about little stuff. However we would barely fight when we were together in real life. We saw each other for three weeks once during our long distance period and I was very hesitant to even kiss him/ have sex with him but was attracted to other people. At the end of the second week/beginning of the third week however I was again in love with him and was feeling sexually attracted to him again. I broke up with him about 5 days ago and it just hurts so much. He was treating me really good and he was so intellectual and smart. I doubt I will ever find a guy like him again. We both cried when we were breaking up and after the first day of breaking up I wanted to get back with him and told him so. He said we needed a bit time and that he did not want to continue long distance at least for a little bit. I’m scared he will never want me back again or at least until we are both back physically in the same place which probably will be beginning of 2021. I don’t know what to do 🙁
Emma

October 22, 2020 at 8:56 pm

So … My name is Emma. Through the quarantine,. we haven’t seen each other and we were just texting. It was pretty hard. Sometimes we didn’t even text to each other. And after this, I decided, that I am not able to handle this. I wrote him a letter, LETTER, where I said that I am sorry but I think that is better to broke up. So, it was over. I couldn’t believe it. I thought, that we will be friends. And he didn’t want to. I was confused and I texted him, saying that I am sorry, that I didn’t want this, that I want us to be friends like before. And he said that I am responsible for what I’ve done. So, l decided to let him to take some space. He was ignoring me and I was sad because of it. And now, after one month, I really miss him. I think that I was stupid. I regret all of it. But he will never forgive me. This hurts most. That I know, that I really screwed it up and it’s all my fault. That he is right and he can be mad at me. I don’t know what to do … I wish you could help me.

EBR Team Member: Shaunna

October 22, 2020 at 9:11 pm

Hi Emma, by the sounds of things he is just upset, but make sure that you stick to a 30 day no contact and work on yourself for now. Reach out again using Chris text in 30 days time

Helena Awuku

October 12, 2020 at 11:30 pm

My name is Lena.I dated my boyfriend for 3yrs.within these years,I solely helped him with everything he needed including shopping for his attires and groceries.I always help him when he needed it.But what I realised was that,we both are working but he turns to ask for financial assistant from me which I do help.But whenever I need financial assistance,the tells me that I’m working and also he isn’t married to me so he can’t be of help.This things he says really got to me when I was in serious need of help which I even promised to pay him back but he refused and didn’t help me.This his attitude made me came to the realization that,when we get married this attitude of his will be worse than I even expect so I have to call the relationship off.I notice he was taking my leniency for granted.
Nancy

October 11, 2020 at 2:48 am

I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday we were together for 1 year in a half he can’t commit I haven’t met his family he doesn’t like it when I bring it up
Madeline-Solange Kisolokele

October 7, 2020 at 6:25 pm

Hello,

I broke up with my ex after realizing that he was taking me for granted. He used to give me silent treatments when he was pissed about a situation. I really want him to work on himself and get back together but I don’t know if the no contact rule will work. I don’t want to reach out to him even if I wait. what would you suggest I do.

EBR Team Member: Shaunna

October 8, 2020 at 8:42 am

Hi Madeline, you make the right choice as he was making you feel bad. However for him to work on himself you can’t “make” him do anything, it needs to be his choice. What you can do is follow the program focusing on the Ungettable information so your ex starts to regret losing you.

Gigi

October 1, 2020 at 7:24 pm

We metat my work place and we liked each other. It was too fast . He was too fast in everything, he was so caring and romantic.he started planning our future together and he also made our wedding timetable and set a date. I was so happy about it and i introduced him to my family But as time elapsed he was hiding me from his family, i thought that her family would tell some hidden parts of him and decided to hide them from me.he couldn’t respect my personal life. He could get upset that i talk to other guys, that i don’t introduce him to my friends. I thought he was faking our future because he might be impotent. We didn’t try sexual intercourse because i refused sex before marriage. As he was hiding me from his family and getting upset on little things that are not worth it, he was occupying me in all my free time that couldn’t do anything else .he wanted to own me all for himself only. I broke up with him 1st time and he begged me to stay, the next time i broke up with him and said if i did that twice he can’t insist on asking me to stay. Now after breaking up wit him. I miss him so much and i think i made a wrong decision that i could hold on alittle bit .
Sarah R

September 10, 2020 at 8:13 pm

I broke up with my boyfriend 3 days ago. We were together for 6 and half months. I broke up with him because he started ignoring me and not talking to me. He knew his mom had cancer but 3 months ago he was told she had 5-10 years to live and would be starting kemp soon. At that time he didn’t talk about his feelings much as guys do. But he did say he wanted me, was set on me, and wouldn’t let me go. A month later (2 months ago) he started to pull away. We stopped hanging just us two and he stopped his good morning/goodnight messages. I started initiating everything and sometimes never go a response. I knew he was grieving seeing his mom going through kemo and also having depression. I originally kept being me saying I love you and messaging him to have a good day. We didn’t hang or talk over phone just us to only with his group of friends. He then stopped saying I love you back all the time and started not continuing conversations even more. We fought over a game but I said I was sorry and he said it was fine. He still pulled away more and started not responding or even initiating conversations with me when with his friends. He only hung with his friends and pushed me to the side. I tried speaking to him a month later. I asked if he just wanted to be friends or wanted to stay in a relationship just needed some time. He responded I don’t know. He also said you should leave me because I’m only going to disappoint you( the depression talking). I told him I didn’t want to leave him, I cared about him, then he ran away from the conversations saying he needs to escape from irl. Which I assumed meant me and his mom’s cancer. I gave him space and didn’t message him much. Then 3 days ago, I decided we needed to talk because I didn’t even know if he loved me anymore. I messaged him can we talk, he responded about?, and I said stuff. He was gaming with his friends and then pretended to go offline and then didn’t respond to me. I messaged him saying pls we need to talk. No response an hour later I texted him we were done. I also said that I just wanted to see where we stood and that I was okay with waiting till things were better and I said my goodbye. He responded hours later saying I apologize I couldn’t be better. I hope you do well…. now I’m missing him a lot. I want him back. I know he needs to deal with his stuff and needs to learn to stop running away and hiding in games but I know He has a good heart and if he does it he will be okay. But does he still love me and is there a chance to get back with him in the future. Because I still want him.
Ann Kaspick

September 1, 2020 at 3:39 pm

My boyfriend and I are middle-aged, both divorced with kids. We were together for a year. I have been crazy about him. He is very honest, very caring, loyal. Both of us were previously married about the same time, over 20 years. My marriage ended 6 years ago, his 3 years ago. He tends to hold on to the past and stress about the future, not being “present” most of the time. I had a terrible story about my past but have used it to learn from and am very excited about getting a second chance. I can’t wait to experience things and try new things. He was all in at the beginning. We fell for each other at the same pace it seemed and were so excited. As time went on I learned that in his marriage, it was very divided. He and his son went on vacations together and his wife and daughter went together. An unhealthy relationship had developed with him and his son to where he allowed his 16 year old son to dictate how his life was managed. His son didn’t speak to me even though I made efforts to try to have a relationship of some kind with him. I was never pushy, just considerate. Over time my boyfriend would ask me to leave when we were hanging at his house so that he could just be with his son. I understand wanting time together but felt after a year in the relationship if I wasn’t part of the family unit in some way it would only cause us to be divided. We ran into this issue every few months and talked about it in a way that communicated it was really straining the relationship. He made plans with his son on all holidays to go camping and never included me. It got to where we hadn’t spent a weekend together in over a month. I would think a year old relationship should be able to assume we would be together on a weekend. I was very stressed about it. I’m crazy about him and felt a connection like no other since the moment I met him. My kids are older and much more independent and we have a great relationship but they don’t control my life. He and his son seem to have a co-dependent relationship and he treats his son like a friend more than his son. I didn’t see any way to resolve the issue so I ended up ending the relationship. I had him over to my house and we talked for 2.5 hours about the issues. I was very careful and I explained exactly how I felt. He told me if he could fix it he would but he can’t. (?) I didn’t see anywhere to go from there. I went no contact for 6 weeks. He never reached out during that time. I reached out after six weeks to ask him to meet up so that I could get my things from his house that I had there. We met at a store parking lot at my request (he lives 35 min from me) and he sat in my car for 4 hours while we talked. We really just caught up and didn’t talk about it ending or why. Now I wish we could have talked about how he felt about the relationship ending. I miss him terribly and have done nothing but think about him constantly and wonder if I did the right thing. I can’t seem to move on and don’t want to act out of fear. I truly felt a connection with him and that is so rare. What can you suggest?

EBR Team Member: Shaunna

September 14, 2020 at 7:32 pm

Hi Ann, it seems like difficult relationship as he clearly had a close relationship with his son, and his son not warming to you is because you are the person he would have to share his dads’ time with. Which no teenager is going to like when they are so used to having his own way. As for making a mistake, I think if you couldnt handle the situation he had with his children then maybe this isn’t the person you are supposed to be with. As asking him to choose between you and his son, I’m sorry but his son is going to win.

If you want to get this ex back then I suggest that you really consider if you can deal with his relationship with his son or not, if you do then you could start reaching out to you ex and re build your connection.

Sara

September 1, 2020 at 4:58 am

I broke up with my boyfriend bc he was in college and I was in highschool and I felt like I was wasting my senior year. I would get so mad at him all of the time over the dumbest things and I stopped wanting to hang out with him. He would do anything for me bc he was the sweetest. We dated for 10 months. I broke up with him and a week later I asked to get back together bc I missed him so much. But then a month later I ended it again bc I just kept lashing out at him. We were in two different places. It’s been 6+ months since the breakup and we have texted twice very nicely hoping both of us are good and healthy. Not a day has gone by where I haven’t thought about him. I feel like he was my endgame and that he’s the perfect guy to end up with. I feel like I got distracted by dumb things like highschool and I got it in my head that I was too young. I started hanging out with this other guy but I just constantly thought about my ex. It never compared bc I was just constantly reminded about all the things I missed with him. I don’t know what to do bc he definitely wants nothing to do with me. And I’m scared to reach out bc what if I just miss the relationship. I can’t do that to him. Plus it would never be the same and his family will hate me. Also I don’t want to be hurt if I reach out and he doesn’t want anything to do with me.
Jasmine Hooper

August 29, 2020 at 1:59 am

I broke up with my bf after almost 2 and a half years. He was my first everything and I never wanted kids but being with him I thought about us having a kid together eventually. The problems we had were his emotional intimacy is not that great. I never felt like a number 1 priority. He has roommates and I felt he put their needs above mine even though it makes sense cos I did not pay rent. We both can say mean things to eachother although he says them without knowing they’re mean. We’re both lvns and im going to school to be an RN and hes not but him being an RN will have us make more money for our future. We were long distance for the last 3 months because I moved home, and from the beginning of our relationship I said I would not live in san antonio, and we talked about where we would move and i feel he was hesitant to move/go up the career ladder. I felt I was pushing him in a direction he didn’t wanna go. I want to live in different places and he wants to be more settled and live in a house, and isn’t content with living in an apartment. I feel he would put the bare minimum in our relationship, and i would always have to think of things for us to do. He wasnt receptive to do many things, he always like a plan beforehand, and more wanted to do things he wanted to do like play video games etc. He also stopped wanting to have sex for a long length of time. And this last time I visited after not seeing eachother for 2 months he didn’t want sex. He also didn’t clean up for my arrival and his house was a mess. Another thing is he’s a night shift worker so he’s up at nights and sleeps during the day which causes him to be grumpy. I also have mental health issues that I need to work on. I know its a lot but I am wondering if hes the one. He has gotten better with some aspects of our relationship over time. Idk I just can’t let go of this idea that we will have a kid together but I need our goals to match up. I feel things would be perfect if he went to school and move close to me before our original 3 year plan
Rachel

August 14, 2020 at 7:07 pm

I ended my 7 year relationship at the end of May. I sacrificed a lot for him and lived 250 miles away from my friends and family and I was struggling. His family influence a lot of his decisions and he works for them so I was struggling with him putting their needs above mine. I regretted it and begged and pleaded for him back saying I’d do anything but he’d moved out of our home into his parents. I got a new job further south but he said he wouldn’t compromise and live halfway – then had a go at me for saying I’d do anything. He went really cold and nasty when I wouldn’t agree to go back and I’ve recently found out he’s on a dating site. I’ve also heard he’s hysterical about the whole thing when he’s drunk saying he loves me but there’s no way it can work. But if he loved me so much and wanted it to work why won’t he compromise and why is he on the dating site? We haven’t been able to do no contact as we’re currently selling the house. His mum has been heavily involved in the break up and has said we both need to walk away. He’s not reaching out to me at all and he’s just changed so much I don’t know who this person is.
Sofia

August 11, 2020 at 8:09 pm

I need some advice please!

In April I broke up my relationship with my last boyfriend after 2 years of relationship.

He is a very gentle person, nice heart and very calm. At the beginning he used to be attentive, fun and communicative but things changed after the first year. His lack of initiative towards our relationship made me lose interest, I was responsible of keeping the ‘spark’ and he stopped being physically close to me. I felt that I needed to find someone who would replace what was missing in my relationship.

I ended the relationship in April, It seemed to be the right decision. I felt I couldn’t make an effort anymore. I met someone right after and currently starting a new relationship.

But for some reason It was very painful to leave him ,like we still have a very strong attachment no matter what other issues we had and it confuses me. I was fine at the beginning of the breakup but once a month all the pain and guilt burst and I dont know If If its out of regret or I truly miss him.
Bex

August 7, 2020 at 11:50 pm

I broke it off with my boyfriend of 5 years because everyone kept telling me ‘uni relationships don’t last for ever’ ‘you’re too young. You need to experience other people’

I thought I was holding him back and stopping him from doing what he wanted to do and where he wanted to go. Instead I never realised that was just with me. A year ago I received an I miss you text. I didn’t know how to reply because I felt the same but embarrassed.

I have tried other relationships but no one treats me as well as he did. He made me feel special, safe and looked after.

I made a huge mistake. 5 years later and I want him back

EBR Team Member: Shaunna

August 8, 2020 at 11:13 pm

Hey Bex, that is a shame reach out to your ex and see if you can reconnect on some level. Understand that it could take some time to get back to where you were in the past as you have spent some time apart and are two different people now

amanda

July 24, 2020 at 1:11 pm

i broke up with my boyfriend of a year and a half yesterday. we met in the very beginning of my freshman year in college and now i’m going into my junior year. i broke up with him because i can’t shake this feeling of wanting to be single again and have freedom and work on myself. he is unlike any other guy because i swear he has never treated me badly whatsoever. he was so in love with me and would/did anything for me. that’s what’s making this so hard because he isn’t even an asshole- it’s just about how IM feeling. we made it a pattern to hang out almost every day and i realized i had no time for myself. i dealt with these thoughts of ending things for a couple months because i didn’t want to make a rash decision that results in me losing my best friend.
But when i finally did it, i couldn’t help but cry all day and miss him. i texted him saying how confused i am and i regret it after reading this article. last night i was an emotional wreck and thought i just wanted him back but i think i need time for myself like i wanted in the first place. it’s just so hard though. my eyes are literally swollen shut from crying lol. i’m a mess!
stacey

July 19, 2020 at 4:15 pm

I broke up with my partner of 6 years because I was never a priority to him. He took me for granted. He was judgemental and borderline narrsistic.
I asked him to leave after he said some horrible things about my children’s father I front of one of my kids.
He left….only to purchase the house right next door to mine the following day.
I can’t escape.
I can’t go “no contact” we are neighbours now.

I’m torn.
Its been 14months and I still cry everyday.
The emotional roller-coaster ride I’ve been on since the beginning is slowly but surely destroying me…….

I don’t know how to handle these emotions of sadness…loss….regret….hate….frustration…loneliness…..doubt….anger….exhaustion

EBR Team Member: Shaunna

July 19, 2020 at 5:30 pm

Hi Stacey, that is so bizarre that he would buy the house next door! But you definitely can do No Contact, you have no reason to speak with him just because hes a neighbour.

Angie

July 19, 2020 at 3:39 pm

He was the perfect guy in the beginning, everything he did and say came off so naturally. We met at the gym, worked out together and got to know each other on different levels. We went out on dates he would text me every morning and was very consistent with me, he’s a little older than I am well a lot older lol I’m 21 going on 22 in a couple of months, he’s 35. I’m very mature for my age and I’ve always liked older men even though I’ve never been with a man his age before. Anyways, fast forward to us living together we moved in after 3 months of dating he really wanted to make things official and it showed. I met his family everything was cool we were so compatible and liked the same things. He was all about his money so was I and he was always on the move we bought our first car together. We had a lot of disagreements but what couples don’t? I got pregnant had a miscarriage by him, we’ve been through a lot and things took turn from there, all I wanted was for him to be there for me but it’s like he stopped putting me first and making me his priorities. He stopped reassuring me, he started being sneaky and secretive about things especially on his phone. He started degrading me whenever we would argue, it’s like I was walking on eggshells with him and I had to always be perfect for him. He had good qualities to him but he was very cocky about himself and made me feel as if I didn’t deserve him all I did was try to love him. He didn’t know how to communicate with me, I was always the one to try to communicate but it’s like he just wanted to do things solo and do his own thing while I sit in the house and cry by myself. He never once fought for me it seemed as if his pride was more important than me. The day I chose to leave him and move back to my moms place it was because I was so tired of feeling like the one to always fix things and he started having the habit of going out really late to hang out with his friends or who knows where? He never contacted me that whole entire night he was out with his “friends”. The day I left I wanted him to fight for me for once and show me he cared. But he didn’t so I left and didn’t turn back I just wanted an explanation an apology. I love the guy with all my heart we’ve been together for about 10 months it’s day 3 since we’ve separated and I miss him like crazy. Wondering is he going to text me sitting by my phone waiting, and waiting. I feel used and abused like my heart is shattered, how could you love someone one day to treat them like shit the next? I want to text him how I feel but it’s like I’m always the one to text him first now a days. All I want is an apology from him and he can’t even own up to it and apologize to me for leaving me hanging that night with no explanation. I just need help on whether I should text him or just leave him alone because I regret leaving him even though I feel like it was the best thing to do for my mental health but I’m just hurt and I just want closure from him.

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